Heartache

My heart is pounding, heavily. Oh man, this is not good. Not good.


How I'm suppose to forget you when you are in my mind the whole time? How I'm suppose to forget the past when I want you in my future plan?


Dammit. Ni semua gara-gara Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Lol *defensive*

Why why why

I accidentally read my older conversations with him the other day. And the reality hits me. Oh snap!

Love is blind?

Love is blind. Yes, indeed. I couldn't agree more. But but, there's a fine line between pengorbanan atas nama cinta dan kebodohan sebab terlalu buta atas nama so-called-love. Haa berbelit tak ayat tu? Buat-buat paham je la ye.



Situasi A:
B dan C couple(or married would be better), duduk berjauhan. Dua-dua kena berjimat duit untuk melawat satu sama lain, sebab duduk jauh kan. Lain lah kalau kau LJ bercinta dengan jiran *tetiba*. Skype, long hours call, 3g, isi borang untuk tukar kerja etc etc tu semua kau dah buat. And this is what we called sacrifices.


Situasi B:
D dan E couple, like there's no tomorrow. Tinggal kawan, tinggal saudara, atas nama cinta. Dasarrr. Bila si kekasih buat salah atau lebih teruk curang, kau buat-buat pejam mata. Konon dia akan berubah, konon dia lah Mr Right. Atas alasan dah lama bercinta, dan orang tu janji nak kahwin dengan kau padahal orang tu nak tumpang senang je. Tapi kau tak nampak sebab kau buta, bukti depan mata pun kau still insist that he/she is the one for you. Ye, ini dinamakan kebodohan. Dan sedihnya, orang tu tak sedar pun yang dia bodoh.

Apa yang membezakan situasi A dan B ialah orang yang terlibat dalam situasi A SEDAR yang dia berhabis duit, berkorban apa sahaja untuk pasangannya atas nama cinta, dan dia tak kisah semua tu. Berbanding dengan situasi B, dia seakan-akan tidak sedar diri atau buat-buat tak nampak pengorbanan yang dia buat tu sebenarnya kebodohan yang nyata. Pathetic but it's true.



Belajar elok-elok dulu dik, kerja bagus-bagus. Masa tu baru kita sedar yang permata yang kita pertahankan selama ni hanyalah kaca semata.

Nasi lemak buah bidara,

Sayang selasih hamba lurutkan,

Buang emak buang saudara,

Kerana kasih hamba turutkan.

p/s: kemain letak pantun bagai.

Xoxo.

Husband

I was talking with my best friend the other day, and both of us agreed that someone's husband look more attractive/appealing/charming than the single one. Am I the only one? 

  

On a serious note, I do not doubt or question when some women decided to be second/third/fourth wife to a rich guy. As long as you know he can provide anything for you, minus the time, then you'll be good. No? Naahhh, even being a first and the only wife doesn't guarantee you an absolute happiness. So, why not? 

Xoxo.

Trust

For me, I don't really believe in LDR. Salute to those who can work on it.


Maybe I'm too sceptical, but maybe I'm right. It's all about trust, don't you think so? And of course, loyalty is a bonus point.



If you ask me, I will try to avoid this as much as I can. But if you can't, then I feel bad for you. Gotcha.

p/s: distance never changed, but people do.


Xoxo.

Two is better than one?

Two is better than one, they said. You will be happy, they say. 

Mr. Handsome #1

We have known each other since like forever. 17 years to be precised. So, i know basically everything about him. From family background to his liking. Physically, and mentally.

He once confessed to me that he had a crush on me since we're in Standard 1. We were classmate back then. OMG. I know, I know, it's a lil bit too early right? Hehe. But, man will always be man. LOL.

The rest is history. Pfft. I'm kidding. Xoxo.

3 years

It's been 3 years since the last time that I got boyfriend. I kid not. 3 years. I never thought I can survive it, but I did, with pleasure. You don't need to have a bf/gf to be happy :)

Most of my friends wondered how the hell did I do that. If you ask me, I myself certainly don't have a piece of idea or advice how to overcome this 'problem'. Maybe I was destinied to be 'forever alone' LOL. But seriously, somehow I feel peace and calmness in this state of situation. Or is it just me? Haha.

Jokes aside, for me in this age (fyi I'm turning 24 this year) I'm not looking for boyfriend material only, but he must have a husband material. Geddit? All men can be your boyfriend, but it takes one guy to be your Mr. Right, right? The one that have the abilities to be a leader, imam for your prayers and most importantly a father to your children. Do you think your current boyfriend can nail it? Please think again, wisely. ;)


Btw,  I'm no longer interested to flirt around, to have scandal and such, and I think it's the right time for me to get into serious relationship. That's the solely reason why I'm single all this while. *excuses* Or maybe because I'm not attractive enough. Haha. *humble* konon la.

So, for my future boyfriend/husband, please be good and a lil bit naughty at times. Too good can be boring, you know. Hiks. Bye.

Facebook

I bet, 90% teenagers and adults nowadays have at least one social network. Most of it would be Facebook, right? Because Myspace become too mainstream. LOL. Since here (Facebook) you can share almost everything, from your vain pictures to your 'emo' status with your friends, it seems that it was(is) your online diary. Sharing is caring they say, but too much sharing is kinda annoying. Don't you think so?

For me, I prefer to not to talk about personal a.k.a private issues in Facebook. I mean, do your friends have to know your every emotional turmoil, your broken-hearted moment, your hatred towards your ex(ouchh), and not to forget your cursive words everytime you are angry. Do you really think you must share everything? Duhh. Please keep it to yourself. Not everything as it seems. People might misunderstood about your message. They might think it wrongly, with the inappropriate tone. Yeah you know written message can be misleading, big time.

Frankly speaking, I miss those time when my friendlist in Facebook is my close friends only. The one that know your lil secrets (but not all of them =p), not including your siblings, and your beloved mommy (OMG). Yes, since that day, I hardly share something very personal so that my family doesn't know my problems. I think it's better for them for not knowing all my mixed feelings. Because you know, teenagers they feel that their love problem is the biggest-and-heartache-issue at that time. Silly us. LOL.

So, do you think you don't have to vomit all your feelings in Facebook, but you can do it here? Weird, isn't it? Hehe. Well, in Facebook every post you make will appear in Newsfeed, and your friends have no choice other than reading it. But here, your readers(if any) CHOOSE to type or click your blog url, and read all your post. Is that make any sense for you? *defensive mode* Hence, the birth of this blog. Hehe.

If you feel want to share something to someone, if you need to put all your thoughts in one place, if you want to make this as a reference for your future, then go ahead, sign in and create a blog. Voila. Within two second, you can have one(if your internet speed is fast enough).

Enough rambling. Till then. Xoxo.